This is my first rant on my blog. Actually, its my first real rant in a very long time.
For most of my life I’ve always kept things to myself. This includes all of my emotions except happiness. I was scared if I showed anger, disapointment, or sadness, it was a sign of weakness. I make friends easily. I’m reliable. I’m passionate. I’d say I’m a pretty good friend. However, when others try to understand me/get closer to me, I always push them away. Yeah, I kind of have trust issues.
But ok, enough introduction. Right now I’m mad. I only get mad when there are things that are out of my control. Shouldn’t I be able to change my life if I wanted to?? If you I put my mind to something, can’t I just push the limits so far that I can do anything?! A little naive, you think? I don’t think so. But so many people do, its so tough to change minds. Though I haven’t given up, sometimes it seems so “impossible” to change something.
You are the master of your fate, and holder of your destiny.
I think its bullshit to let someone else dictate your life. The people who love you will support you no matter what. UGH. Its just Romeo and Juliet all over again. I’m referring to relationships. I don’t want to go in too much detail, but in a relationship, shouldn’t one be focused on the relationship itself? Not what others think?
This is a war that I have to fight.