Forgiveness

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”

Practicing forgiveness is probably one of the most important contribution to healing the world. BUT….

Dear backstabber/future backstabber,

I consider myself a nice person. But I’ll be honest. I will let you into my life, befriend you and even share my food with you. But buddy, you do not get 3 strikes. You get one. Once you have wronged me, I will remember it for the rest of my life

Let me explain myself.. I may not be able to look at you the same way, but I will be civil. I will even be the better person and apologize for something that wasn’t my fault. Okay, I’m done.

Sincerely,
Me

I will not give names, nor tell the entire story (though if you would like to know, go right ahead an message me for a deeper understanding). It was ’10, and the first time in my life that I have ever been backstabbed by a close friend. Will I every truly forgive him? I’m not sure. But I do look back at the fond memories we once had. He’s served as a mentor, teammate, and friend; and that gives me hope for a future friendship to start emerging again.

Now the questions circling around in my head are: Do I want to associate myself with that type of human being? Can I help him in any way? Will I be able to muster the strength to forgive him for his wrongs?

Hmmm. I’ll end this rant on this note. Forgiveness is most definitely not looking the other way. I’m one that likes to confront problems. But you know what? Because its an honest Monday, I’ll let you all know that I can forgive, but I can never forget.

Advertisements

The War Zone

This is my first rant on my blog. Actually, its my first real rant in a very long time.

For  most of my life I’ve always kept things to myself. This includes all of my emotions except happiness. I was scared if I showed anger, disapointment, or sadness, it was a sign of weakness. I make friends easily. I’m reliable. I’m passionate. I’d say I’m a pretty good friend. However, when others try to understand me/get closer to me, I always push them away. Yeah, I kind of have trust issues.

But ok, enough introduction. Right now I’m mad. I only get mad when there are things that are out of my control. Shouldn’t I be able to change my life if I wanted to?? If you I put my mind to something, can’t I just push the limits so far that I can do anything?! A little naive, you think? I don’t think so. But so many people do, its so tough to change minds. Though I haven’t given up, sometimes it seems so “impossible” to change something.

You are the master of your fate, and holder of your destiny.

I think its bullshit to let someone else dictate your life. The people who love you will support you no matter what. UGH. Its just Romeo and Juliet all over again. I’m referring to relationships. I don’t want to go in too much detail, but in a relationship, shouldn’t one be focused on the relationship itself? Not what others think?

This is a war that I have to fight. 

When Everything Goes Wrong

I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.
-Aubrey Hepburn

You can be the happiest person alive, then life throws that crazy curve ball. Hit or miss, we have to strong enough to move forward.

I believe that through hard times, its okay to break down. Its okay to rant, and fuss, and beat the crap out of a body bag. But afterwards, you have to come back down to earth, and realize that there is so much more the world has to offer. The true test of character is if you are able to personally handle it.

Happy Monday, lets hit the ball out of the park.