Pick Yourself Up

Apparently its my 1 year blog anniversary today. 🙂 I know I’ve been a bit AWOL.

Yenow, I was going to post a rant a few days ago. Life was pretty sucky. I was in a mini rut. Lasted a 2-3 weeks or so until I finally snapped out of it. Or AM I out of it? I don’t know. However, I DO know that I feel better…so that should mean something :).

I was on vacation for the past 2 weeksish…went to Hawaii and crossed off some ’13 bucket list items 🙂 Got some sun, and it was a lot of fun. But whenever I’m 1. Not swamped with work 2. Not hanging out with friends, I start to think…a lot. Andddd this year definitely had a couple rough patches. This year’s wrap up in a few months is going to be crazy intense. My grandma, as well as one of my friends passed away and its been taking a big toll on my heart. I now understand how people feel when they say they’ve lost someone close to them. But life isn’t about holding on to something that you once loved, its making new experiences and memories with those who are here, now. Yeah- I’ve been telling myself that for the past few months, but its so much easier said than done. I’m not really one to talk about my feelings much, so its a lot easier to type things out. I guess everyone needs a place to vent, and this blog has helped me quite a bit. You guys-the readers have also really helped out a lot. 

I’m trying to think of something useful for those who are going through a RUT as well. If you all have any wise words, I would love to hear them. 

I think first and foremost, mourning is a must. Trying to stay “strong” doesn’t mean not letting yourself go and to just cry every once in a while. Let it out. A lot of life is hurtful, its okay to let the tears flow. 

Let those around you know what you’re going through. There are plenty of shoulders willing to catch your tears if you’re willing to open yourself up. I’m one to lag on this step. Lag quite a damn bit. I mean 99% of the time, I’m either happy or hungry! So its just as odd for me to express my feelings as it is for the person listening to me (I think). I don’t think they know how to respond when I go “deep zen mode”, and I’m very unpredictable when it comes to wanting to open up. Its just like dancing for me. I’m either in the mood or I’m not. If I’m not in the mood, I’m not gonna dance.

Exercise. Damnit, if you feel like eating a whole pint of ice cream, you go eat that pint of ice cream. However, you definitely have to work it off. Just like the quote in Legally Blonde, “Exercise gives you endorphins, endorphins make you happy…happy people just don’t shoot their husbands.” Trust me. Exercise will make you feel better, and you won’t have to fight the urge to kill your husband. Its the best way to take out your frustrations.

You need to pick yourself up, and move on. Always remember the good times you’ve had with the ones that have passed, but don’t forget that you have a life to live. One that the people who are no longer with us would want you to live to the fullest. So follow your dreams. I now have another dream developing. I’ve already lost two people I loved very much to Cancer. Both fighters. Both that had an influence in my life. I’m going to start with the Liver Walk this weekend, and then on to bigger things that will make a difference for families that haven’t lost their loved ones yet. 

Last, but not least, appreciate the good things in your every day life. You only have one life to live. Despite losing two loved ones, there were nine more reasons to smile. My cousin’s dog had NINE puppies! 🙂 Any wise words, funny internet memes/vids, cute pictures would be greatly appreciated at this time!

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Underdog

I’ve always been an underdog, ever since I came out of the womb. Its so weird hearing from my mom that I was born premature, in an incubator, weighing in at ~4 lbs. A fighter I was, and a fighter I’ll always be. You see, life is quite funny. When you look back you can look and see who had faith in you, and saw your potential, and those who underestimate you. Sadly, I had to drive myself to do most of the things I love. Support from my parents was never really there. It really sucked, actually. When you’re young you rely a lot on your parents to give you some guidance. But everyone has their story, right? I think I turned out all right for the most part. :p

That brings me to another point. My friend and I were talking about underdogs the other day, and she mentioned that she and I are underdogs in different ways. It makes sense. We’re pretty much young guns in our industry, just trying to do the best we can do with what we’re given. I personally like climbing the ladder. I’m not sure what it is. Something about proving to others I can do it? Possibly. I think its more about gaining the respect of others around me. Respect, unlike power can only be earned by jumping through fire with your peers.

Here’s a vid that I really enjoyed. The Last Pick – Jeremy Lin

The Fighting Spirit

Tournament Reflections:

I always get extremely nervous when entering any type of competition, or performance. So naturally, the support of friends mean the world to me. Before we get into the deets of the tournament, I just wanted to say that I am SO thankful for those we made the trip to Merced with me, and some who drove alone just to watch me compete. Its those types of gestures that I’ll remember.

I competed in Individual Traditional Kata, Team Kata, and Sparring. I placed 1st in Ind. Kata, 2nd in sparring, and our team placed 1st in our division. I was runner up for Adult Grand Champion for Tradtional Kata. We tied, and we both decided to do show of hands for the winner. I lost to a Gentleman who trained in Shotokan…he had SO MUCH POWER. I would love to learn how to generate more power in my hips! Great person, with a lot of knowledge to share in such a short amount of time.

So…where to start? Overall it was a very humbling experience. Competing with beasts of martial artists tends to have that effect.

Here’s the video for my Ind. Kata and Team Kata. Enjoy! Critiques and feedback are always welcome and appreciated! 🙂

After performing our Team Kata, I was tightening my ankle brace when a mom and a little boy came up to me. His mom congratulated me and said I kicked butt (Aww), and then proceeded to take her seat. The little boy stayed though, and asked what was on my foot. I told him “Ohh, I hurt my ankle a few years ago, its is to help prevent further injury! Be careful when you train, okay?” He responded with an exasperated “OoOoh…” Then, trying to spark some conversation I asked what he trained in, and what he was eating. He said “RICE KRISPY!…be right back, stay here!” He then ran to where is equipment was, and grabbed a bag of Doritos! LOL…and offered it to me! I told him “Oh no no no, its okay! That’s for you to keep your energy up!” The boy insisted I take it. And oh my gosh. He gave me the BIGGEST puppy dog eyes EVER. So…I took his Doritos and he ran off hella happy. Gosh I love kids. They’re so pure in their intentions. 🙂 I always speak about small things that people can do to make someone happy…this was one of those moments. 🙂

“To laugh often and love much; to win the respect of intelligent persons and the affection of children; to earn the approbation of honest citizens and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to give of one’s self; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived—this is to have succeeded.”

-Ralph Waldo Emmerson

A little off topic: It makes me proud that I could overcome different obstacles in my path. One of my friends laughed at me the other day when I jammed my finger playing bball. I told her that I don’t get injured, and when I get hurt, I see them as mere inconveniences. 😉 And like any inconvenience, you have to move on, because there’s nothing you can do about it, anyway!

The feedback from this weekend was positive, so I think that its safe to say, I am improving. 🙂 Its one thing when you put your heart and soul into training, but when others notice it as well, you feel that you’re invincible, and on top of the world! But now, its time to train even harder than before. Can’t wait until the next Tournament. Until then, FIGHT ON! 🙂

I know you guys were waiting for it…pictures! Enjoy 😉

Photographs by Scotty Asai & Stephanie Louie

GTFO … of Your Comfort Zone

For the most part, I try my best to improve in something everyday. But lately I’ve been struggling a lot with being content in my personal life. I don’t necessarily like it, yet I still try my best to embrace and ignite change. Because a spark can easily turn into a flame.

Something I’ve been trying to level up on for the past year is sparring. I’ve always been more comfortable in performing Katas. A few weeks ago, I was asked by members from UC Merced to help judge their tournament. When the time came for the sparring division, they were short on competitors. Now, I definitely wasn’t in the best shape for sparring, since I haven’t practiced in a few weeks. However this was a perfect opportunity to get some more experience with different fighters. I was extremely nervous, but kept telling myself that this was the only way to improve. I needed to step out of my comfort zone.

So…I jumped in, did my best, and lost 2-3. I’m glad I found the courage to compete (thanks to my friends who comforted me & pushed me), since I wasn’t expecting to win (otherwise I wouldn’t have done it) but to face a fear, and ultimately step out of my comfort zone. Here are a couple pics. Oh boy do I need to train harder than ever! 2 more months until the next tournament. I’ll be more prepared, and hopefully, it will show! 🙂

Fight on, everyone!

 

Edit: Teehee I look like a vampiyaa with that mouth guard! :p